it sucks when you have this really great desire to improve and start changing for the better, and you start, but halfway down the road, laziness sets in and reverts you back to the same old brand new you.

take for example, some things just get the better of us. we make up our minds on some things like, say, preparing for your exams one month beforehand, & you study for two three days and go "this is getting irritating", or just get the urge to throw your books out of the window.

OR it can also be like how i made up my mind to take the entire weekend to prepare for my bio test that was today (and was good), but i ended up rotting away my entire saturday, out shopping on sunday and only begin to revise on sunday night and monday morning.

where has all the self control in the world gone? i MUST do this means i MUST do it. no right turns, no left turns. set my mind on a target, WANT to achieve that target, and achieve that target.

one more thing, the best way to having a successful "academic-life" is not plainly just by forcing yourself to read through chunks of calculus or what-shit subjects, at the same time wishing you could rip up the pages and throw `em into the fireplace. the secret lies in how much we love studying.

some subjects appeal to us more, while some less. take for example, i love bio, thus i tend to pay much more attention during bio classes compared to chemistry classes. another factor is the one who teaches you. if you have this strong urge to chop of that teacher's head in class, chances are we aren't willing to pay 100% of our attention during his/her classes. teachers that we like, we tend to (kinda sorta) pay more attention. and when you love this particular subject, you tend to start wanting to study that subject whenever your parents or whatever forces you to do self-revision. and most of the time for me, it's my bio textbook on my table.

but the big question is, how are we supposed to love the subjects that we so strongly despise?

i want to know the answer too, someone hand me the answer sheet?

please?9:54 PM