hmm. today had to go back to school to help move some CO stuffs back to the old new cca block. they renovated it. so it looks newer, but not that nice anyway. now our CO room is kinda small. and there is no committee room. just one big empty white-painted room. with astounding echoes. oh. whatever. i have lots of things to tell people.

to my mother:
why do you have to walk home and start nagging at everything you see? i was just hanging up the clothes and you have to comment so much on what i do wrongly. hey, it isnt like i do the laundry everyday. and it isnt like i have perfect skills at hanging clothes. why must you fuss over this kinda small stuff. and youre just making yourself more stressed by doing that. PLUS i dont see what is the problem with having 2 earholes on one earlobe. your reason being ITS TOO AHLIAN. and look like a mad woman. why do you think that everything i do is ahlian-ish. i have no desire whatsoever to be one. and why can't you just let me keep that earhole. i mean. whats the big deal with 2 earholes man.. i dont understand you. and when you are in a bad mood the whole world suffers along with you. argh.

to my father:
i know you wanna use the computer, but you dont have to make me do stuff like hanging the clothes so that i'll get away from the comp. hey, i only get to use it on weekends. most of the time that priviledge gets stolen from me by sis and you. i dont do that to you guys. the whole week you get to use, and weekend stil wanna snatch from me. i mean.. you keep saying that i should help mum in housework. yah, i do help her occasionally! but what about you? haiz

to my sister:
yeah. what is ur PROBLEM. can you please quit blackmailing me. and being a 2nd mr soon-at-home? its driving me crazy. WHY do you have to tell on me whenever you get the chance? HUH! i hate the way you pinch me like there's no tomorrow. why are you entitled to have that kinda control over me. and it's your stuffs that messing up the whole place can? and im made to clean up everything just bcos i share a room with you. and you should be tidying up your wardrobe lor! AND you were at home the ENTIRE day whereas i just only got home. why couldnt you keep the clothes that were lying around PLUS hang up the clothes? all you do is your own stuff. and go out all the time.

i honestly cant stand the way my life is leading me.

why?

i dont know

i need someone to talk to. maybe having my thoughts put into paper and pen might help

i hope so.

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